Author Dawn O’Porter has explained how she coped with the grief following the death of her close friend Caroline Flack earlier this year.
Love Island presenter Flack took her life in February aged 40.
Speaking about being told Flack had died, O’Porter said the moment felt like someone had ‘kicked her in the head’, but added her responsibilities as a mother helped her carry on in the wake.
The television presenter, who has two young sons with her husband, actor Chris O’Dowd, addressed her grief during an appearance on That Gaby Roslin Podcast.
She said: ‘When Caroline died it felt like someone had kicked me in my head and I couldn’t get up – but I had to get up because I have two small children.
‘The week after she died, I kept saying to Chris, “Who’s going to make me laugh like that?”
‘I laughed until I wet my knickers when I talked to Caroline. Where is that going to go?
‘She was only 40, but Chris and I kept saying that no one could have sucked more life out of those years than Caroline. She ticked so many boxes of what people are supposed to achieve, and she achieved them at level 10.
‘I wish Caroline had just hung on to see that the world was going to move on from what she thought everyone cared about.’
Flack had been arrested on suspicion of assault on December 13, 2019, following an incident with boyfriend Lewis Burton the previous day. Both Flack and Burton denied the allegations.
There has been criticism directed towards the Crown Prosecution Service (CPS) by Flack’s family, who accused them of setting up a ‘show trial’ by charging the presenter with assault.
Elsewhere in the podcast, O’Porter also reflected on meeting her husband, who she married in 2012.
She said: ‘I’d said, “I’m going to take a year off dating”. I had four back-to-back (dating) disasters. On my 30th birthday, Chris had started to chat me up on Facebook – I didn’t know who he was.’
Speaking about how they balance childcare duties, she added: ‘It’s never been an issue for us to share childcare, he’d always get up in the middle of the night and sit with them for hours.
‘I feel like I’m functional and lockdown has taught me how to play with my kids.
‘Chris would play with them for hours, and not get bored, I’m in awe of that.’
That Gaby Roslin Podcast is available with new episodes every Monday.
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